Saturday, April 30, 2011

One Day Stronger

I woke up refreshed this morning. Usually on the weekends I can sleep until 11 or 12...but I feel already that a lot of my stress is gone. It feels wonderful!

I told myself that I was going to take the whole weekend to rest and recover, but I just couldn't help myself. I vacuumed the whole house and started to organize the mess of a basement. I set an alarm for 1 hour and that was definitely long enough. It's going to take weeks to finish, but now I have the time so I'm happy about that.

Mack and I went for a run today. I like taking him because it gives him a chance for exercise to to get outside, but I hate stopping and running so slow because he's too tired haha.

Cam went to play Warhammer today, so I had the house to myself all day. I decided to make a pizza. I cheated and bought the dough this time and I have to say that,  even though it wasn't a perfect circle, the pizza that Cam and I made together from scratch tasted much better! It was still good though!

Cam and I finally finished watching the Royal Wedding tonight. Such a beautiful thing to witness. With all the crap going on in the world, it's wonderful to see a real fairytale come true! It makes me think of my own wedding and I really want to renew my vows!!

Well...it's that time again. Time to sleep and start a new day!

Friday, April 29, 2011

Housewife Day #1

Well, today was my first day as a full-time housewife.

I still haven't processed the whole mess of yesterday, but I only cried twice today so that's a start!
Today didn't start out so well...I've been having issues with my phone where when the battery gets too low it switches to Houston, TX time (who knows why). Houston is an hour behind us. So the alarm went off at 4:30 and Cam looks over at the regular clock is says, "Why does that clock say 5:30?!"
So, Cam was an hour late to work today...thank goodness he didn't get into too much trouble, but I felt horrible!

I was going to go back to sleep, but after the drama I couldn't. I decided to take today and the weekend to rest, relax, and recharge after the insanity that happened. I still can't believe that actually happened...
I spent most of today organizing and figuring out a schedule for myself so I don't get too bored all day. I also drove to their house and returned the car seat that was in my car. As I got closer to their house I could literally feel my chest tightening and I started to panic.

What if they're outside?
What if they see me and come outside?
What would I say...what would they say?

I decided to stop my car right before their house, put the seat in the garage, and then get in my car and go. Thank God I didn't see any of them and now I have no more ties to them.
I made my way to Verizon and ended up having to get an extra charger that adds 5 hours of life to my battery.

I didn't run today. I thought about it and how it would clear my head, but I had already gotten dressed for the day and then would have had to shower and get re-dressed so I just decided to be lazy!!

Since I have more time and I'm a little more relaxed I was able to make an amazing dinner. I made Shepherd's Pie and Cam said it was the best he ever had (and he's actually had it when he lived in Europe)!! That made me feel great!! I can't wait to have more time to do things in my own home...I can already feel the positive impact it's having on me!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Nanny No More

As most of you have probably heard by now, I got fired from my job today.

The day started out just like any other. I got up at 4:30...cleaned and then went to the gym. I had another great session with Alycia. Then, I got ready and went to work.

Sarah and I had The Little Gym today and we had a blast, a usual. We had lunch and they both finally left for work. I put Sarah down for her nap and finished up all the chores and sat down on the couch. George came in and demanded my key to the house and told me I could leave. I was so confused, but went to get the key. He said to make sure I have everything and that my job was terminated. I asked him for an explanation and he said no and to get out of his house.

That's how my pleasant day ended...the only thing I can think of is that Rachel's asshole step-sister saw my earlier FB post and said something (Which is not a good reason to fire someone, but it's the only thing I can think of.)

So there it is...I am not unemployed and officially a housewife until I can find a new job. Don't get me wrong, I hated working there and I am so happy to not have to deal with the under-appreciation anymore, but can't help but feel hurt and angry about the whole situation. The thing that hurts the most is that I didn't get to say good-bye to Sarah and I'll probably never see her again. At least we had a fun last day together and hopefully they won't brainwash her into hating me too much.

Well...this is not how I planned to get another job, but I guess it's for the better. Hopefully my stress levels will go way down and I can focus on my own house and family and my running!!

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Another Beautiful Day

Ugh. What a rough nights sleep I had last night...or should I say this morning.

I'm trying to get my body into a routine, so I started getting for bed around 10 and layed down. Cam was still upstairs playing on his computer. I heard a noise around 12am...I got up to see and Cam was standing at his dresser and scared the crap out of me!! Then, I went back to sleep and at 1:30 Roman was already crying at the door to eat...I had to chase him upstairs and close him with Apollo in their room.

The alarm went off at 4:30 and I seriously thought about cancelling my gym session this morning. But, I powered through my fatigue and did my usual cleaning and got ready for the gym. Alycia kicked my butt (we did some arms and I ran on the treadmill). After running outside in the fresh air I have come to hate the gym and working out, especially running inside.

I had another issue with work today...still looking for another job, but other than that the day was really nice. Sarah and I walked to the bookstore for storytime and I ended up falling asleep while she was napping haha.

I'm also doing well with my de-stressing and loving my new friendship with the wonderful Nealey (Her husband is Cam's cousin)!! Tomorrow's another gym day with Alycia and a busy, busy day!!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Beautiful Day

What a gorgeous day today was!

I started my day off right today. I actually woke up and stayed up with the 4:30am alarm....
I made Cam's coffee and bagel to go and poured myself a cup of coffee. After Cam left for work at 5, I cleaned the kitchen and did a load of laundry.

Then, I got ready for my morning run. I was saying good-bye to Mack and he ran downstairs all excited so I decided to take him with me. Since I slowed down my run/walking since the last time he went with I figured he would do a lot better. Plus, it wasn't as hot since it was 6am haha. I love my pup-pups, but he definitely slows me down. I wouldn't say I take twice as long with him, but it definitely takes longer.

He survived and so did I! Then it was time for a full day of work...you all know how I feel about work so I won't get into anything...but I do write down everything they do because some of it is unbelievable and will come in handy when I write my book!

I think Mack is still pooped from this morning because he's been laying around all day and looks so sleepy! Unfortunately, I won't be able to take him out again until Friday. I'll be at the gym tomorrow and Thursday with my trainer...

Monday, April 25, 2011

Back on Track

Hello Monday!

I stayed up a little later than I wanted to last night and I was soooo tired this morning. I went back to sleep after Cam left for work (at 5am). By the time I woke up I barely had time to get ready, take care of Mack, and get off to work.

Speaking of work...my angels say that I will quit my job soon because I just get so frustrated with everything (which I already am) so I have started searching for something better. Now I'm just waiting to hear back so I can de-stress about another thing.

I got back on track with my running today! Thank goodness there was a nice breeze because it turned out to be a really nice, hot day! I'm still sticking to the same schedule as last week. I'm not sure yet when to start upping my runs...

I found the perfect article in one of the running magazines and I can't wait to really read it. It's all about planning and scheduling runs, especially in the morning. I like when I'm interested in something and I can get a schedule made out for it.

I'm planning to run in the morning and possibly bringing Mack with me. There was also a great article about running with dogs!

Well, if I'm going to get up at 4:30am I better get to bed!!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter

Happy Easter Everyone!!

I've had a lazy couple of days (I haven't done any running since Thursday). Not because I'm lazy, though, haha.

Friday night Cam and I went to Melt, an Italian restaurant, for dinner and it was amazing! After a really nice dinner, we saw the movie Hop! Appropriate for the Easter season and it was really funny and cute.
Yesterday, we drove to South Jersey to Cam's Nanny's house. We got to meet his cousin Chris' wife and their new baby!! I talk to her on FB all the time, but it was great to finally meet her and talk in person. The baby was adorable, too!

Aunt Jeryl gave me a special gift yesterday. Not a present or an actual gift, but a gift for my soul. I don't want to get too much into what it's all about because it's somewhat personal and a family thing. The only reason I mention it is because I know Aunt Jeryl reads my blog and I wanted to give her an extra shout-out and thank her again for the amazing information she gave me! (Love you Aunt Jeryl!)

So, back to today...It's Easter today and I woke up to the sun shining. The weather channel said rain all day so I was surprised to see this sun this morning. I thought about cleaning the house and running, but I was really liking just relaxing with Cam and catching up on our shows!

We will be heading to my Mom and Dad's house in a little bit for Easter dinner and then over to their neighbor's for dessert! I can't wait to see my puppers and have a nice, family day!!

Friday, April 22, 2011

The Biggest Loser

I've been watching The Biggest Loser for a few seasons now and I ball like a baby at almost every episode. I have to say that this season is the most inspirational of them all. It made me really look at myself and wonder why I struggle so much with weight and food. FEAR. Overcoming fear is a huge thing for me. The first step for me is changing up my work out routine.

I've been afraid to run for years. 1. because of my asthma and 2. because I just thought I couldn't ever do it. Fear.

I did run again yesterday and it went well. As the weather is getting warmer (I'm saying this as it's like 30 degrees right now) I want to start running in the morning. I've had a slight taste of running in hot weather and I'm not a fan of it. I hate sweating and I hate bugs.

There are some things that I really like about running outside...
1. I like the sound of sneakers on the gravel
2. No one can hear me breathing (and with my asthma sometimes I breathe like a crazy person)
3. I always feel like people are watching me work out at the gym and then I have to look at the ridiculously skinny women there
4. I get to shower in my own house and not see older ladies walking around in their birthday suit
5. I can never get the right pace on the treadmill as I can get while running outside

Tonight Cam and I are going to the movies right after work (haven't seen him since Sunday) so there will be no running tonight. I plan on running tomorrow morning before we head out to North Jersey to visit family!!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Perfect Weather

The weather channel app on my phone said there would be thunderstorms all day today. So I was very pleasantly surprised when I got home from work and it was sunny and warm.

I had a rough day today after being sick all weekend and off from work yesterday and Monday. I won't get into too much detail, but those of you who know me well know how the family I work for keeps house. Usually Mondays are the worst, after the weekend of not cleaning up, and I literally have a panic attack when I walk through the door so I was freaking out wondering what today (After being away for 4 days) was going to be like. Honestly, it wasn't as bad as I thought.

Still there was 4 huge loads of laundry, cleaning up toys all over the place, grocery shopping, making dinner and storytime with Sarah. Thank God the cleaning people were there today (they come every-other week) so that helped me out a lot too!

I was looking forward to running outside today and really hoping the good weather stuck because I just hate going to the gym at night. It's too crowded, I always feel like people are watching me work out, it smells, and I can never gadge my running comfort level on the treadmill.

So, it goes back to me being very happy for the nice weather we had today! I kept with my run one song, walk one song routine. Since I didn't get a chance to run yesterday I didn't want to push myself. Although, I think I will stick to that plan for the rest of the week and then go from there. I was very comfortable today so I'm thinking either I'll add a half or whole song to the running and keep the walking the same or should I add another half or whole mile?!

Anyone who has a suggestion about that, please leave a comment! I'm still learning all the ins and outs of running and I know you can't really make a mistake with it, but I'm finally excited about something and I want to do it right!

It has been a long day. After resting for almost 4 days and really relaxing yesterday, today was a big shocker and I'm just so drained. As of now, I am just dealing with a cold (sneezing, runny nose, etc.) and I'm hoping to kick it by the start of next week when I bump up my routine!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Rain, Rain, Go Away

I slept for 13 hours last night and woke up feeling SO much better! My throat was just a little sore, but I'm still sneezing and couch which stinks.

I was very excited to get in my second day of running, but it was pouring this morning and didn't stop all day. I know a lot of people run in the rain, but being cold out still and being sick I thought it probably wasn't a good idea.

Instead, I had a Glee marathon with my 2 cats on the couch all day! Probably not the best form of exercise, but I have to go back to work tomorrow and definitely needed to rest up. You see, Mondays I usually have a panic attack when I get to their house so I can only imagine what tomorrow will be like...Laundry piled to the ceiling, dishes all over the counter, garbage piled high, and a long list of things to accomplish on top of taking Sarah to "storytime."

Just thinking about it now is making me insane...I think this calls for a cup of tea and a nice bath before bed.

I'm hoping the rain will end by the time I get home from work tomorrow...or I might have to stop by the gym on the way home and do the treadmill to at least not miss another day of running.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Day 1

Today technically isn't day one, but it is day one following my new plan.

Before I left for my walk/run I re-read my magazines again and wrote down a few key points to remember. I am horrible with remembering to stretch, but I know it's really important, so I did my stretches and then was out the door.

I always make the mistake of jumping the gun, so to speak, and running right away. My plan for week one is to walk for the first 5 minutes, run 2 minutes, and walk 4 minutes. Since I've been sick all day I figured I would just take a nice, brisk walk just to get something in for today. As I started walking I felt great.

I know a lot of people hate running with an ipod, but I can't do without it. I love being able to blast my favorite songs and just get lost in the music for the 2 miles I've been doing. I have enough thoughts during the day and I don't need anymore time with just my thoughts, haha.

I also am hoping to get a watch with a timer for keeping better time during my runs. Since I don't have one at the moment, I decided to walk one song and run one song. Most of my songs average 4 minutes so I figured that I would try and figure out the 2 minute mark in the song, but I was just feeling great today.

I ended up walking the first 5 minutes and then I did run one song and walk one song. I thought about stopping, but I felt pretty good so I decided to just go with it. The run to walk ratio was perfect. My lungs weren't killing me too bad and my legs were feeling strong.

I got to experience another first...running in the rain. Thank the Lord that it was pouring because I had a whole mile until I was home, but it was a drizzle and it actually felt nice.

All in all my first day on my new plan went very well! I can't wait to run again tomorrow!

Another Try

So I decided to give blogging another try. This time I will be writing about completely different things.

For months I have been trying to get healthy and feel better both inside and out. I feel like I've been stuck in a rut and can't get out of it. So, a couple weeks ago I started walk/running.

Let me just say that I am NOT a runner. The last time I did any kind of running was freshman year of high school. On top of that I have asthma, but I'm trying!

I started out walking and shuffling...then running every few songs on my ipod. Then, I started taking Mack on my walk/runs. He was all excited in the beginning and actually walked nicely and was behaving himself. On the second mile back I literally had to drag him to the house haha.

Well, my wonderful cousin, Asheley, is a runner. So she was the first person I thought to talk to when I really wanted to throw myself into running. She answered all my questions and promptly sent me a bunch of running magazines! She also encouraged me to start up my blog again and talk about all my running progress.

I've already read 2 of the magazines cover to cover and have gotten some great ideas and tips. I can't wait to read the others and I'll be on my way to becoming a runner in no time!