Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Summer

Well it's officially summer. I remember when that actually meant something...Summer break from grade school, summer break from high school, summer break from college. Now it's just plain old summer, no break.

Not that I'm complaining...I just miss the old days of no responsibilities.

So, a week ago I started a Cleanse and Burn program and so far have lost 5 pounds. It would have been more, but the diet part is really restrictive and I caved a couple of times. Also, I went to a wedding and definitely indulged there haha. Back on track with the program now so I will update when it's all finished.

It was a busy work week, trying to catch up after Father's Day, so the week went by pretty fast.
Saturday, my friend, Michelle, got married! I took the day off so I wouldn't have to be rushing around all day. As always, I was ready like an hour early and Cam finally got ready like 30 minutes before we had to leave.

I wanted to leave around 3 because the wedding started at 4 and I wanted to have enough time with traffic and whatnot. Cam's almost done getting ready around 3 so we're right on track....no, he still has to clean out his truck. We don't end up leaving until 3:20 and the GPS says it's an hour drive...WTF!!

So, I'm pissed because I hate being late and I am only late when I have to wait for Cam. He drives like a maniac and OF COURSE we get stuck behind some slow-ass people on all the back roads we had to take.

And we are late. 15 minutes late. I'm literally running up the hill in my 4-inch heels and trying not to break my ankle. The ceremony has already started...great. We sneak in the back and not too many noticed. I was mortified. We only missed the beginning and the rest was beautiful. I cried.

We headed outside to blow bubbles on the new couple and then we headed to the reception hall. The place was so cute! Rob was there (he's a friend of ours, went to school with him since grade school) and he was DJing! We knew it would be a good time then!

We sat with friends, Erin, Damien, and their daughter Madison. And Michelle's roommate, Calvin and his BF. We all had a great time chatting and catching up. Then, it was time to eat...and we were starving (especially me, I've been eating like nothing all week haha). The food was A-MA-ZING! It was like Thanksgiving...turkey with gravy, roast beef with gravy, mashed potatoes, stuffing, green beans, cranberry sauce, buttered rolls...it was family style around the table and it was yummy!!

We did some dancing and they had a photo booth with all kinds of dress-up stuff!! Kasey and I went in first and then I went in with Cam! They're putting the print-outs in our thank-you cards! I can't wait to get them back!! They also had an ice cream bar along with the cake and cupcakes for dessert (like I don't have enough ice cream) haha, but that's what I got and we took cupcakes to go.

Since I took Saturday off I had to work on Sunday so we headed out a little before 10...in PA almost all gas stations are 24/7. We were out of gas and there was nothing around open. All the roads home were back roads and no gas stations there. We drove a good 20 minutes before we got to a more built up place and I was praying to God that we didn't break down in the middle of nowhere. Just as Cam got the receipt and got back into the car, they shut the lights. Someone was watching out for us that night, I'm sure!!

We made it home and I was exhausted. Work the next day was fine. I worked with the kids all day and it was like old times (the last time I worked there haha). Yesterday was a busy work day too and today I have the day off.

I have a doctor's appointment today and I'm really hoping to find out some good, positive information. I don't want to say too much about what's going on until I know details and what's going to happen...but I promise I (or Cam) am not sick and it's nothing serious. Wish me luck!!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Another Day, Another Dollar

This week sure has been a busy one.

Most of the week is a blur. Since holidays are always popular for cakes I have been very busy at work. Usually, I work about 4-5 hours. Doesn't seem like a lot, but when you're standing on your feet the whole time and bending over, digging out hard ice cream, it definitely takes a toll on the body. With Father's Day approaching, I worked 7 hours on Friday and 6 on Saturday. In the span of 2 days I built and decorated almost 60 cakes. Plus, tons of cupcake packs and cookies!

Friday and Saturday my back was killing me and I was exhausted. So, when Saturday night came around I was already in a bad mood. My boss insulted me at work (yea, after all the freakin work I'd been doing). He was "joking" but that doesn't mean it hurt any less. His daughter (who is also my friend) is the cake decorator at his other store. She and her brother built like 50 or 60 cakes together and she had 50 to decorate on Saturday. Well, I didn't have any help and did about 30 each day (Fri and Sat). So, he made a comment like, well she already had 18 cakes done by noon. And I came back with the fact that hers were already built and I had to do everything on my own. So there!!

So, that started off my foul mood. Then, Cam went to the beach with some friends and they had really poorly planning skills...long story. Anyway, so I was supposed to meet them at the movies and take Cam home because they picked him up on Friday and he had no car or way to get home. The movie was supposed to be at 8 or something and they were about 2 1/2 hours away. I still needed to know the exact time and how to get there.

I called Cam around 5 to see what was going on. They had just gotten to the beach. What?! Are you kidding me?! Who the hell planned that out. So, that pissed me off because what a waste of a beach trip, to me anyway. So then I got home and showered and got ready. I called and called and texted Cam, but no answer. Now I was really starting to get pissed. How can you make plans and expect someone to be somewhere if you don't answer your phone?!

I was going to give him until 8:30 and then I was getting into my PJs and into bed. He would have to find another way home. Mean, I know, but come on, pick up your damn phone! So, he finally calls me about 8:00...lucky bastard. Then, my GPS couldn't find the address. I ended up having to use my phone and finally got it to work. The movie ended up being at 9:10. It was after 8 by the time I got the damn address working and I had almost an hours drive to the theater. I drove like a mad-woman and made it there just before 9 (yes, yes, I am an awesome driver haha). Cam calls and I tell him that I'm about to park....here comes annoyance #3 for the day...

I ask where they are and they're still about 20 minutes away. Are you serious?! Ugh, so I play on my phone for a bit and decide to go stand by the door so they see me when they arrive. The longer I stood there, the more angry I got. They finally got to the theater and the movie was already 10 minutes in (not just pre-views, but the movie) Annoyance #4

We saw The Green Lantern, which was really good! Ryan Reynolds is definitely a hottie!! We got into the car to leave and I let him have it. Maybe I was a little rash and out of line, but I literally was exhausted and having all the annoyances on top of another didn't help one bit.

Today is Father's Day! I got to sleep 11 hours last night and I feel much better today! I have a wonderful Dad and I will be seeing him on Tuesday!! Cam went to NY for the day with his dad to fly in old planes and such. I am just happy to be relaxing all day with my kitties and some Panera for lunch! Yum!! Especially since I'm started a Cleanse and Burn tomorrow for 2 weeks! It's pretty intense and restrictive, but I'm hoping it will be what I need to boost my metabolism and help get me the results I want. I will also be getting back into my fitness routine now that that time of the month is over...I just can't do anything during that haha (sorry if that's T.M.I.)

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Depressed

Alright...this post is going to be one giant pitty party, but I just need to get all the emotions I'm feeling out.

I found out today that a family member is pregnant. She hasn't been married a year yet. I've been so emotional today since finding out and I can't stop crying. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for her. It's just not fair.

I just want to start screaming WHY NOT ME?! Are you freakin kidding me?! I've been married for almost 3 years now...where the hell is my baby?! People who are close to me know a lot more about our pain and struggles than most people in my life do.

I'm so sick of people asking me "when are you going to have a baby?" "Don't you want children?" "If you just relax it'll happen" SHUT UP!!

I just literally want to scream at those comments sometimes. If they only knew how hurtful those phrases are to me. I do well for so long and then at times like this I just get so deep in a depression that it hurts to even get out of bed. My whole body aches from it.

It makes me so angry to see all these women just getting pregnant left and right and especially people who don't deserve children (like those idiots I used to work for). It's not fair when you want a baby so badly and all it seems to be is happened around you. I would give anything...

Sorry for all the complaining for those who have kept reading to this point. Wanted to be a mom so badly and it being so difficult is the worst feeling in the world. Not only do I feel sorry for myself, but for Cam too. I know he wants a baby also and I feel like such a failure that it's not happening.

So for now, well tonight at least, the pitty party is over. I guess it's time for bed and hopefully I'll feel better in the morning...

Ugh, Internet

So I just wrote a whole blog about what's been going on the past week...and something happened with my internet and erased the whole thing. So, before I throw my laptop across the room and wake up Cam with my cursing, I'm just going to briefly list everything again...

Wednesday: Cam calls me on his way home from work...his truck broke down and he had to get it towed home.

Thursday: I was off from work, but had to take Cam to his Drill weekend and then pick him up later that night.

Friday: Brought Cam back to the Armory, then I had work. His car was towed from our house to the dealers. After work, I headed to NJ with Mack. My BFF, Kasey, had a big bash to celebrate her moving into a new house! It was so much fun! We played pong, danced (our friend is a DJ and he brought all his equipment), played a card (drinking) game, and went in the hot tub!

Sat: I spent some time with my parents and then headed home sans Mack. I leave him at my parents every so often so I can have kitty time! I love having the house all to myself sometimes, so I just relaxed and watched movies all day!

Sunday: I worked with my friend, Lori! It was actually a really fun day. Cam got a ride home from one of the guys and he was home before me.

Yesterday: I had to stay home from work because Cam had to use my car. Turns out that the dumbass tow truck guy brought the truck to a closed dealer, so it just sat there all weekend. They finally brought it to the correct place and now we don't have to pay for any of the towing. We went to get a rental car from the airport...what a freakin fiasco. It's a long, annoying story, but we finally got the car, an hour later...

Today: I worked again and our friend, Laurel, was supposed to come over again for dinner before her class. She got a bad headache and actually left work, so she didn't come over. I actually cooked dinner this morning because I didn't know if I would be home before her. We found out that the truck is going to cost over $900...so that really sucks!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Yoga, Sweat, and Tears

I got a new set of Yoga DVDs in the mail the end of last week. I've been waiting for them for over two weeks and was so excited when it finally came! It's called Progressive Power Yoga and the instructor is the same guy that has clients like Jennifer Aniston and Jennifer Lopez...among many others.

There are 5 DVDs including and I just picked one to try. An hour and a half later I was finished. I have not had such an intense work out in a long time. I literally lost 4 pounds in that one work out! It's crazy, insane and I definitely recommend it to anyone who likes yoga and who wants to get into great shape.

My problem is that I have to stick to it haha. I tend to start things and then I get lazy and doesn't happen. But, seeing the amazing results already I WILL be sticking with it! I'll still be doing my running (which I did on Monday), but mostly because I can do it anytime and I can only run in the morning before it gets too hot! I will keep you all posted on my yoga progress!!

Also, yesterday Cam and my friend Laurel came over for dinner! She lives 50 minutes away from her work in Allentown and then has class at night so she'll be over every Tuesday for dinner! I made yummy Lasagna with Italian bread and it was the best one I've ever made. I tried a new recipe and it will be the only one I use from now on!!

The only thing that sucks about her coming over is that the visit is so short :( But, oh well!
Everyone knows that Mack is really hyper and jumpy. So, we let him meet Laurel and then gave him 2 little bones and put him in his cage. Usually he would cry and be scratching on the door, but he was so good and I was really proud of him. He didn't make a peep for over an hour!! What a good doggy!

Monday, June 6, 2011

Drinks and Karaoke Fun

So on Saturday Cam and I met our friends, Laurel and Bill, at AppleBee's! We had a yummy dinner and dessert! Then, we headed over to Durango's. It's a bar in their area and it was karaoke night! We had these amazing drinks called "Panty Droppers" haha. I had about 4 of them and then I was ready for our song. Cam, Laurel, and I sang "Don't Stop Believing" by Journey!! Cam sang "Take it Easy" by the Eagles...he sounded amazing and then Laurel sang a No Doubt song...we were supposed to sing a duet, but I chickened out....maybe next time!

We got home after 2am and then had to be up before 8 because Cam's dad was going with us to the VFW for breakfast and then to a gun show with Cam. I literally stayed in bed all day and ate leftovers! It was wonderful!

Back to work today...surprisingly I didn't have too much to do and I was home before 3. So very excited for my day off tomorrow and then Laurel is coming over for dinner!! :)

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Busy Bee

Well, I've been a busy bee all week. My life is not too exciting right now, but I'll re-cap everything that's been going on...

Memorial Day went very well. Cam and I went to 3 different places and he did a great job bugaling. Then, we BBQed with some friends...it was hot hot hot out, but we drank Mike's Hard Lemonade (I am NOT a beer drinker) and we had a great time! Cam and I made Baked Beans (they were a big hit) and I made my famous brownies and added some red, white, and blue sprinkles!!

I worked Tuesday and Wednesday since I had Monday off. The weather was b-e-a-utiful this week, but it made business really crappy. I didn't have too much to do, but got a chance to catch up on organizing and doing some extra things. We also figured out the pink frosting problem, thank God!!

Thursday, I had a nice day off! I caught up on some cleaning and spent some extra time with Mack! I also got some great news...I won the case against my former-boss-assholes!! Some of the most exciting news I've had in awhile!! Also, my True Blood season 3 DVD came in the mail and Cam and I have been catching up before the new season starts later this month!

I made a small rectangle Princess theme cake yesterday and then last night had a dream that the pink went again and the whole cake melted haha. I was very happy to see today that it was not true! I had hardly anything to do again today and was home before 3...

I am very excited for tonight! Cam and I are going out with friends...this time to a karaoke bar!! Haha...should be interesting. I'm definitely going to need a few drinks before I even think about doing it!! :)