It's Been Almost a Year

Well hello there!

It's been almost a year since I've blogged and I thought I would get back into the swing of things.

A LOT has happened in that year...

• I found out that I was pregnant last March. We waited over 3 years to hear that amazing news and we couldn't have been happier. I continued my work at LVDI and I was so blessed to have worked with such amazing women who helped me through the highs and lows of my first pregnancy. Everyone was so supportive and helpful to me!

• Cam and I used our Disney timeshare and vacationed to Hilton Head, South Carolina last May. We had a really nice, relaxing vacation and enjoyed the beach and time at the pools!

• September, we had our last hurrah before the baby with Cam's mom, her girlfriend, Meg, and their friend Cindy. We all flew to Arizona for a week and we were busy busy busy sightseeing. Some days I thought I was going to die from all the walking and exploring. I think Cam forgot the fact that I was 8 months pregnant at times. But, I kept up with everyone!! Arizona is a beautiful state and Cam and I often talk about, if we ever sell our house, moving there.

• That's another development. We decided to try and sell our house. After 7 months of people coming through and lowering the price a ton, we decided to postpone selling for the time being with having a new baby and the stress of it all.

I'm sure many other things happened in the year that I've been MIA from blogging. None as important as the new love of my life. My baby boy. But he deserves a whole blog of his own, don't you think?!

She Works Hard For the Money

The upside to everything I've been going through is my job. Most people can't say they really like their job and I can't believe I'm saying it myself, but I do.

It hasn't been a month yet and I already feel like I've found my calling. I'm moving right along in learning the ropes and the girls I work with are like family already. I work with a great group of women and I honestly am excited to go to work in the morning.

Of course my work schedule and Cam's do not go well together. I'm 11:30am-8pm and Cam's is 10pm-6am...not too much time to spend together but we're working on a plan to maximize our time together.

We're also making a point of getting healthier together. Eating better and exercising daily. I've been completely slacking off ever since I had pneumonia...time to get back on the wagon!!

I finally got my hair cut today...the last time was June 2010!

Before:

After:

I'm loving my new hair cut! Can't wait to get my nails done again tomorrow. My weekly pampering now that I can finally get my nails done with my job!

Depression Has Set In

Wow. I haven't written in forever.

I was hoping the next entry would be great news and I would be announcing that I was finally pregnant, but no. This morning (on the day of my pregnancy blood test) I woke up to an unpleasant surprise.

I started giving myself hormone injections into my stomach a little over a month ago. This was to grow my eggs so there would be something viable to use. It wasn't very pleasant, but I kinda got used to it. It worked. I grew a great size egg and I was ready for an IUI.

We were scheduled for the Wed after Christmas and I was nervous and excited. Tuesday we get a call at 7:25am and were asked if we could come that morning instead, because my bloodwork showed I was ready then. Now I was nervous.

Cam had to do his "business" and then we headed on our hour drive to the doctor. We got to look in the microscope and see Cam's boys swimming around and then with an ultrasound wand we got to see the doctor inseminate me! It was pretty cool.

From then on Cam was convinced I was pregnant. I wasn't. I wanted to be hopeful, but I'm just so tired of getting my hopes up. And I was right to be. Weeks of thinking I was pregnant only makes the reality of it so much worse. I feel horrible. I just want to stay in bed all day and cry. I can already feel the skin around my eyes drying up from rubbing them.

I don't even know what's going to happen next because of my new work schedule and the doctor being so far away....speaking of work. That's about the only good thing going right now. I really, really like my job and I've met a lot of really nice people so far! I'm hoping it will continue to somewhat distract me from everything that's going on.

It's just so hard to stay positive about something when you've been let down over and over again. Any words of wisdom would be appreciated.

Updates

I don't know why it's so hard for me to sit down and write a blog, but it's been almost a month since I've written.

Honestly, not too much has happened in a month...

Cam and I have been gearing up for Christmas and I've been getting closer to finishing my job at Cold Stone and starting my new job at the hospital.

I've started hormone injections (into my stomach) so we will see if they will help at all.

I can't wait for Christmas! We are having dinner at our house this year. Cam has to work that night and we found it easier to have it at our house. We are excited to be bringing Nanny MacQueen back to our house after Christmas Eve. She has never been to our house and I know she is so excited to be spending the holidays with everyone.

Since Mack ruined our couch by licking himself on it, we decided to have it professionally cleaned before company came over. We got an indoor electric sensor so he can't go on it anymore as well as another one upstairs so he can't go in the cats' room! Poor pup-pup was so sad when he couldn't get on the couch. :(

I am so looking forward to my Iphones coming in the mail! I got one for Cam for Christmas and one for myself haha. A girl at work told me about this awesome site that sells Iphone accessories for much, much cheaper than getting them at Verizon.

If I don't get a chance to blog in the next couple of weeks...

Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays
Happy New Year :)

Feeling Better

Since my last post I am feeling a lot better!! I was on medicine and my cough is almost gone. Nighttime is still the worst, but at least I'm sleeping better now. I did have a new development...bruised ribs. I thought they were cracked, but my x-ray didn't show anything. It's still painful when I cough, but not as bad anymore either.

I had a really nice Thanksgiving! First, Cam and I went over to our friend Laurel's house for brunch and then headed to NJ for dinner at Joanne's (Cam's Mom). My parents and his sisters joined us and we all had a really great meal together. Cam had to work that night so we headed home early.

I've had a lot of days off since Thanksgiving. Because of the holiday the order didn't come to the store and we ran out of product so I couldn't make anything. It's nice to have off and be home, but obviously I'm not getting paid and that sucks. I'll be going back to work tomorrow and I know I'm going to have a ton to do...

On a happy note. I got the medical receptionist job!! I went for my second interview and she told me I got the job right away! I got another tour of the building and sat with the girls at the desk for a little bit. I am soooo excited! I start January 4th and it's going to be great! I'll be telling my boss tomorrow about the good news for me, bad news for him, but I'm giving him a month's notice!

This morning I woke up and went upstairs to feed the cats. When I opened the door Apollo had a mouse in his mouth. I freaked out and went to wake up Cam to help me, but Apollo hates him and would never listen to him so I had to do it. I got the roll of paper towels and went back upstairs to get the mouse. When I went back up he wouldn't put it down so I got their food to get him to put it down while he ate. I went back over the gate and Apollo put it down and it ran (I thought it was dead...I don't know why he didn't kill it).

So now I don't know where it is...if it ran back out or what. I was freaking out and crying so hard that I got sick to my stomach. I HATE mice!! Yuck! I let Mack in the room where it was and was sniffing around like he was on the hunt. Terriers are rat hunters so I thought that if he couldn't find it then it probably left again. We shall see. I will be making a trip to get some traps tonight and I'll be hoping and praying to God that was the only one!!

I'm looking forward to feeling better each day and I even started walking/running again this week. I'm starting back from the beginning, but it really feels great to get back outside and get some exercise!

Sick

I've been wanted to post for awhile now, but I've been really sick.


I said in the last blog that I was sick for my Halloween Party. I went back to the doctor the next day and was the first and only one there. I still waited for a hour and a half. After all that the 2 idiots (they were more worried about giggling about the computers than helping me) said that I had nasal drip. I had a horrible fever that night and decided to go back to the doctor the next day. This time I saw a different doctor and when I got there I had a 102 fever. She examined me and said I had Asthmatic Bronchitis. It was viral so they couldn't give me anything except some cough syrup to help me sleep.


I was still getting the fevers and not feeling any better. I had to take the whole week off and got so much grief about it (for God's sake I was freaking sick) so that didn't help either. I had to go to work on Saturday and I felt completely awful. I went to work this Monday and then on Tuesday I searched for a new doctor. I wanted a second opinion on my illness.

Cam and I wanted a more intimate, family practice and that's what I found. I made an appointment and went to see if they could tell me anything different. Plus number 1: I didn't wait very long in the waiting room and about 20 minutes in the exam room. The doctor was very nice. She asked me a million questions and then did an exam. She listened to my lungs and said, "I'm almost 100% sure that you have pneumonia, but I want to send you for a chest x-ray just to be sure."

She listened to my lungs...3 other doctors from the other place listened to my lungs and they heard nothing...needless to say I will never be going there again. So I got an x-ray and it showed that I had pneumonia in my lower right lung. I had to take Wednesday off to rest, but I was back to work on Friday...and my friend had her last day of work that day. :(

Today, I had work all day. I'm feeling a little better. Still hacking my lungs out not being able to breathe very well. I made it through the work day and I'm looking forward to relaxing tomorrow and hopefully feeling better each day.

Halloween Party

Well, this week started out normal enough. I worked on Monday, ran my errands on Tuesday, and worked on Wednesday as well as sitting at the service station for 2 hours with Cam's truck as a favor to him.

Thursday, my sickness started. It was just a cough and a runny nose, but then turned into a fever and nightmares. I honestly can't remember what I did on Thursday, but I called off from work on Friday to try and rest up for my party. I drank 5 huge cups of tea and took hot showers. I thought I would feel better in the morning, but after another sleepless night I still felt horrible.

Yesterday, I had to be at work at 10am. I woke up with Cam (It's his Drill weekend) and took some dayquil and had a banana to get something in my stomach. I ended up having a choking spell and thew up. I had to go to work b/c I'm manager on Saturday. Thank goodness there wasn't too much to do and after I finished all my cakes, I literally got a blanket out of my car and napped on the ground in the back.

The girl I worked with made me a milkshake and aside from drinking half of that, a cup of tea, and 3 bites of a bagel I couldn't eat anything else. I went home and took another hot shower to try and kick out the cold. I ended up getting sick again (probably from the dairy) and then I took and half hour nap before getting ready for the party.

When I woke up, I got dressed (I changed my outfit to just leggings, a fancy top, a huge fake ring and glitter heels and said I was Khloe Kardashian. My Gaga outfit was too cold and I couldn't wear it. But, I put on my glitter eyelashes and did my make-up big. Cam and I put the finishing touches on everything before the guests arrived.

The party was a success! Everyone brought great food (which I was hopefully feel good enough to try tonight...all I ate last night were crackers, pretzels, toast, and sherbet) We had a pong tourney going on and everyone seemed to have a good time. Too bad I felt so horrible, but all and all it was a fun night.

I actually got a really good night's sleep last night. The extra hour helped too! I woke up feeling a little better. I had a mug of tea and then switched to ginger ale and soup and crackers. I did some cleaning up and catching up on my tivo and now I'm going to take a little nap until Cam gets home from Drill.

I hate to say it, but I didn't take any photos. Bad Krystal, I know. It really was a good time though. Thanks to everyone to came and brought such yummy food! :)